It works. It really, really works. I am still amazed but… have I said it? It works!
Around 3 o’clock this afternoon I was gearing up for a very difficult class with a bunch of rowdy pre-teens. If you don’t believe me, get this: two weeks ago, before I came to class, they wrote “CACA” on the board – and drew it too. I’ve been dreading going there for a while now and have seriously considered quitting. But I’ve decided to finish the trimester. That meant, as of 3 o’clock this afternoon, three more sessions.
I parked the car and got out like Marie Antoinette going to have her head chopped off. And then I thought… wait a minute, I know what to do. I didn’t really think it would work but hey… it was worth a try.
So I asked myself this: “What would I like to feel instead of this icky, awful anxiety?” The answer was: “Peace.”
Yeah, right… I was as far away as possible from peace.
But I continued (it pays to have a method!) – I asked myself another question: “What, in my environment, captures the feeling of peace?” I looked around at the buildings, the cars, the roofs and the clouds. And then I stumbled on a tree. For me, trees are the most peaceful beings on the planet.
I focused on the tree. “Oh, tree, you don’t have to teach, you don’t have to perform, you don’t have to… anything.” For a few seconds and no more than that, I bathed myself in the feeling of peace that the tree radiated.
And then… marvel of marvels! I had the best class since the beginning of the year!! It worked!!!
Alright… I’ll stop with the exclamation points. But really… I am still amazed that it worked.
I’ve discovered a while ago that it is not necessary to change my feelings ABOUT a subject. All I have to do is capture whatever I want to feel… wherever I can: in nature, in other people, in the past, in the future, in outer space… It doesn’t even have to be remotely related to the subjet that’s bothering me. In fact, the more I manage to let go of it, the better it turns out.
So if you are going through any turmoil at the moment or you simply need a break, I am inviting you to the Tranquility Corner. Sit on the bench and revel in the tree, the lake and the autumn.
And may your day be peaceful and good.